It started with a tv show. “Space… The final frontier” said the disembodied voice. And then you see her. The USS Enterprise NCC-1701-d. I was caught it was the coolest thing I had seen as a kid. Take in mind this was the early 90’s the show was already into its lifespan. Going from the “Silver Hawks” and “Thunder Cats” to real life androids and the Borg! I was blown away. All the sudden the doors to science fiction were blown open. I devoured every episode every movie including and not limited to; bugging the manager of a Jack N The box for his name tag, because they were shaped like communicators at the time. This was 94 and I was ten when “Generations” came out. I started watching TOS and just wishing I could be Kirk.
I did not have a great upbringing. The lessons Trek taught me are still prevalent.
- Don’t be selfish: The needs of the many out way the needs of a few.
- Don’t be a Racist or sexist: Female Chief Security officer that kicks ass. Almost all data episodes. Warf! The first interracial kiss. Sulu (Oh My) I could go on and on
- Be a captain but there is always more to learn
- Keep learning and exploring; “…Seek out new life and new civilizations, to boldly go where no one has gone before.”
And for me the most important. You can do everything right, and still lose. You have to face fear. To quote another brilliant SiFi series “Fear is the mind killer” in the new time line there is a quote that i always loved.
“The purpose is to experience fear, fear in the face of certain death, to accept that fear, and maintain control of oneself and one’s crew. This is the quality expected in every Starfleet captain.”
This is how i live my life. Think logically and steady. Anything I’m going threw is not impossible its just difficult. With my family or at work this is something that has always made me thrive under pressure. At the end of the day tho. It was that ship. The way it felt so real to me as it flew threw space.
Oh and one last thing.
Live Long and Prosper 🖖
Okay, so I’ve been completely obsessed with skillshare as of late. I decided to check out a “class” about writing challenges. The object is to write for anywhere from five to fifteen minutes on a prompt. The first day is “Today I noticed” and I go on a ten-minute rant on hot dogs. I can’t wait to see what the next one is. Please if you like the idea please join in and leave your writing doodle in the comments.
It’s the bread. The bread of a Costco hot dog is what really sets them apart. Its the soft and steamy bun and the crisp snap of the hotdog. Then there are the sesame seeds. Overall its a perfect combo of soft and firm. Moist and juicy that play so well together. Now I like my hotdog plain. Nothing to distract from the taste. There are two things I love on my hotdogs: Cheese and chilly. Caspers hotdog is a close second to the Costco hotdog. The crisp of a Caspers dog is unmatched. Now I’m sorry Hebrew National and ballpark your not gonna cut it. That said I think no one here will argue that any hot dog BBQ and cooked to well done, taste amazing. Now the only thing for me to try is a real New York street dog. I also hear Chicago do not fuck around with there hot dogs. Until I actually try them Costco is king.
I really wish I could write. Now I know, that’s what I’m doing now, but I want to write like my heroes. I wish the words would flow in the cascade of the beauty like that of Neil Gaiman, Or in the unabashed and unfiltered way of the Gonzo journalist Hunter S. Thompson. I do not want to be them, only wish my words came out like there’s. I can only hope to one day be happy with what and how I write. My grammar is horrible, My spelling is downright a crime, and lastly, my imagination is nowhere to be found. Now I’m not just sitting down and wishing. I am doing the work. this blog is a huge step in that. something I always thought about doing. I remember reading an interview with someone and he was asked (and I’m paraphrasing here) “Do you only write when Inspired?” and the author answered “Yes. luckily inspiration hits every day between 9am and 2 pm.” I always loved that and it has stuck with me for a long time. So now I try my hardest to make this time. I wait till after the kids are all off to school and the house is quiet. then I sit here looking at this snow write page, wondering what in god’s name I’m going to put on it. I never have a plan, I think that shows. The good news this blog is for me so I’m not scared to just throw whatever is on my mind at the screen and see what sticks. I’m happy with it so far. I do plan on taking some classes in writing and journalism. Now I don’t want to write a novel or become a Pulitzer prized writer by any means. I just want the words to flow out of me onto the screen in a cascade if vocabulary beauty. Is that too much to ask for?
Well that last post was a joy ride, am I right. Well where do i go from there. the thing i love most about this process, is i never know what I’m going to end with. I sit here and tell my self, “Self do your thing.” and I get what I get.
Phase 2: Taking action.
So i started working with some on. We shall call her B. I meet with B in a few days to discuss our next step. That makes my next step trying to figure out what my next step should be. Adulating is hard. I wish i had faith in my work. Sure i know i can do what ever needs to be done or at least fake it till i make it. When it come time to talk money i freeze. I under value myself because what i can do seems so simple to me. So when i look at making a living i say to myself “Who would pay X for that? Not me.” but I’m not the one in need of the services. so it’s a tough area for me. That said i do need to make a living at this so i have to come up with something.
Project 2: All in.
The other thing im working on involves my more people. I setting up my own super group of friends that i feel need to be shared with the world. I want my friends to do well. To grow and succeed, and i want to do everything i can to help them. so were starting up a Multimedia company. Will be launching with a Soft launch of our website. I want to launch the website in September, just as every one goes back to school. Next will come the podcast this one will be fun just in the experimental phase trying to figure out what we are what our voice is. Last part of my three-part plan to take over the world, um i mean to launch will be the YouTube channel. this one is the end goal because i have no idea what the hell is going on at YouTube like at all. So will leave that one last. All in all im really excited to work with these people and excited to share them with you (trust me these people are awesome.)
So there it is my master plan all laid out before you. but given my latest analytics I don’t have to worry about any one reading these so this is the safest place for them. Now im off to do my parental duties. wish me luck and as always may the swine guide your path.
I have not forgotten about you!!! I have been working on stuff every day. New videos, Post, Pictures. Always trying to be creating these days, and its an amazing feeling. My head is so alive with ideas (OK i think that’s the weed but what ever it keeps me motivated.) I do need to get better with actually documenting here what i am doing. For example yesterday me and Liam Filmed a “LootCrate Unboxing video” this am i eddied it and it’s currently being uploaded. Been posting to Instagram at least twice a day (on good days) and at least once most days. I am still new to all this. Learning Adobe has been easy i guess.? The coding takes more brain power than I have most days so that is slowing me down a lot. Yesterday got my fall guide for college classes. really think im going to do it. Im going back to school! unfortunately im more Rodney Dangerfield and less Adam Sandler….. wait no that is the Better Option anyways. So i want to take a edditing class and a video production class this fall and im thinking coding in the winter. Its a huge comitment for me with Lando and all but a rolling stone gaters no moss right. Just Keep Swimming! Thank you for sticking with me. It has beem a fun ride and we really havent even started yet! im excited for where this is going. and i want to thank you all for the motivation and encuregment.
I let procrastination win. I gave my self an excuse and I ran with it. I am sorry. No i am not apologizing to you, the reader, but to myself. I did not start this for you (but thank you for reading it) I started this to see if i could make my self do something. With Lando home from school, it was a logical excuse to forgive my self for not doing the work. Just sitting in front of the computer and forcing my self to write something today. Making this a habit. Small steps in a long journey.
last two days i have made myself follow a schedule. first get the kids up. if the alarm wakes me up, and not Lando, then my day starts at 7 am. After kids are out the door i start my house work. Should be about 10 am now and I let my self play some games (Ark is life.) Around 11/11:30 i go on a walk. take pictures and see what i can just create. today i got to see Turtles, a lot of turtles in the lake next to my house. it was cool to see. Now its lunch time. Around 1 in the afternoon i will sit here and just see what comes out. This gives me a solid hr to do something before Liam and Lando get home a little after two. After that its in the hands of the gods.
So the lesson i learned? STOP MAKING EXCUSES and DO THE WORK!